“The most confused you will ever get is when you try to convince your heart and spirit of something your mind knows is a lie.” ― Shannon L. Alder
Wednesday, May 7, 2014
Chapter Twenty-Six
Evelyn was adjusting to being an alien teenager. She found she required very little if any sleep. She needed to restore brain power on occasion by sitting quietly. It was a great time to meditate and decide what she was going to do with all her extra time since she didn't have to sleep.
She took up a new hobby, golf. She was a natural and her skill increased rapidly. Early one morning while she was practicing her swing she began to ponder her existence. Why was she different? She wanted to know who the aliens were that caused her existence.
She wanted to ask her parents but didn't want to bring up memories they would rather forget. She heard the rumors, how her Dad had been abducted by aliens. How he had come back pregnant with her and becoming a medical curiosity. Was she the only half alien half human alive? Were there others like her somewhere? Would she ever meet her progenitors? What would she do? What questions would she ask?
Evelyn knew that despite her burning curiosity, the question she most needed answered centered around her parents. Did they resent her? Did her Dad look at her and relive his ordeal with the aliens? She didn't know why she felt the answers to these questions were so important, she had only ever felt love from her parents. There was no reason to doubt but the older she got the more questions she had about her existence. Would she have been able to do the same in their place? She just didn't know and worry nagged at her.
William's anxiety was not easing, if anything it was building. Most days he felt overwhelmed with the need to protect everyone, keep them safe. He didn't know from what but he couldn't shake it. He had a vivid recollection of his feelings before Robert's accident and the feeling now seemed to be building towards something worse. He tried to ignore it, to dull it by following the Doctor's advice, taking the pills as prescribed. The doctor even suggested they get this hypnotizer thing to lesson stress.
William was a little dubious, not seeing how a spinning disc could be of any use. But he let himself be talked into buying it. He had to admit it was hilarious watching someone stare intently at the disc until their minds and faces went blank. When they were in that state, they were highly susceptible to suggestion and would do whatever you told them. The entire family thought it was a great party trick and took turns trying it out on each other. But it didn't seem to do anything for William's anxiety.
"Honey, how did your appointment go?" Jessica asked.
"Ok I guess."
"Only ok," Jessica said going over to William and putting her arms around him. "It's not getting any better is it?"
Sighing heavily William shook his head.
"Maybe it's time you try that new drug the doctor suggested."
Refusing to look at her, William shook his head.
"But why?" Jessica asked "If it'd make you feel better, why not? Why are you being so stubborn and refusing this? I don't understand."
"I'm not being stubborn. The drugs I take now leave me feeling sluggish and dull. Why would I want to take something stronger? So I couldn't feel anything? Jess I already feel like a robot, I go through my day on auto pilot. I just want to feel something other than this god-awful anxiety." He was breathing fast as he finished speaking and tears were blurring his vision as he looked towards his wife.
With tears of own, Jessica simply drew her husband close and held him. "We will get through this. I know we will." She felt William nod his head and he laughed a little as he hugged her close.
"I don't know what I'd do without you," William said giving her a kiss.
In an attempt to distract his mind William took up playing he guitar. At first all he managed to produce was so much noise. Eventually the lessons started to make sense and the noise became music. He found he could relax while he played and he determined to keep up the guitar lessons despite the almost debilitating anxiety he was suffering. He continued to work and cooking proved to almost as soothing as playing the guitar. William felt he was coping as well as could be expected. He refused to take any stronger drugs, he wanted to feel a part of his kids lives instead of being in a drug induced haze. Despite her concerns, Jessica supported his decision.
Jessica had other concerns on her mind. She hadn't told William about her encounter with the alien. She had hoped his anxiety would lesson since there had been no sign of the aliens since that night. But it only seemed to have increased. She didn't want to add to it by telling him the aliens planned on coming back and this time it wasn't just him in danger of being abducted.
Despite her concerns she was determined to keep a positive attitude for fear she would slide into a deep depression of her own. Somehow she knew, her and William would survive whatever the future had in store for them. With all this going on she almost forgot about the award ceremony for Casey that was scheduled for that night. They were running late but they all made it in time to hear the opening speech.
Casey kept balancing from foot to foot in anticipation of receiving his award. He accomplished the all night camping trip. He had enjoyed collecting rocks and insects on that trip, he loved being outside, being one with nature. Although he didn't care too much for fishing, he could do it no problem. However all you did was wait and wait for a fish to come along and take the bait, it was so boring! No thank you, he had other things he could do with his time. Casey smiled when his name was called and he rushed up to shake the principles hand and take his award.
A few days after the award ceremony, his parents threw him a surprise birthday party. He hadn't been expecting one as his parents seemed to be preoccupied with other things. So when he came home to a houseful of people he knew he was having a party. Casey just loved parties; especially if they were for him and he could be the center of attention.
Casey was finding it difficult to come up with only one wish, there were too many things to choose from. It was taking so long for him to decide the candles were about to melt into the cake and Gene was ready to shove his head into the cake instead
He finally decided upon a wish and blew the candles out. He refused to share what he wished for but everyone suspected he simply wished for unlimited wishes. Everyone was excited to see him age up into a teenager.
Jessica told everyone how her little boy had grown up to look just like his Dad. Casey felt like hiding when his mother gushed all that out in front of everyone but his sense of propriety kept him from saying anything. The last thing he wanted to do was a cause a scene.
Tuesday, April 29, 2014
Chapter Twenty-Five
Gene was feeling left out, all the attention was going to his brother. Big deal Robert was hit by a car. Robert's alive isn't he? But what about him? He was important too but his parents only had time for Robert. Gene almost wished he'd been the one hit by the car, at least he wouldn't be invisible. He wasn't sure why he felt this way but he was jealous of all the attention Robert was receiving. He could pinpoint when he started to feel this way, it was the night of the award ceremony. The principle told everyone all about Robert being hit by the car, made him out to be some sort of hero or something. Everyone was so busy congratulating Robert that no one even noticed he had received an award for excelling in science. When they came home that night Gene barricaded himself in the tree house, eventually crying himself to sleep.
William felt like he was neglecting the other kids in order to be there for Robert. He knew this trauma effected everyone in the family and each one was coping the best way they could. Sydney surprised him by how mature she seemed to have become by helping out around the house. She even decided it was time she got a part time job, mainly so that she could splurge on her own art supplies but she was generous with the other kids as well. It appeared to William that Sydney realized how transient life is with Roberts accident and was taking strides to be less selfish and he was proud of how she was blossoming into a lovely young lady.
Evelyn was especially attentive to Robert and never left his side. She told everyone she was his nurse and with her lively eccentric ways she was able to keep Robert's spirits up when he was frustrated with not being able to do the things he wanted.
Casey and Beverly entertained themselves. Casey talked Sydney into giving him art lessons and learned to paint. Sydney realized that she enjoyed teaching and was thinking about a going to school to be an art teacher so that she could help others learn to express themselves through art.
Gene was the one who took it the worst. He imagined all kinds of things and worried that his parents loved Robert more than him. He took to playing by himself and staying in the tree house all day and night. He wanted to avoid everyone and not see them all catering to Robert. At times he felt he hated Robert and wished he had died. Then he would feel guilty and hoped no one would somehow find out what he was thinking and find out he was a terrible person for feeling that way.
William noticed how Gene wasn't coping with all the changes. William thought he needed to be reassured of their love as he was sure Gene wasn't simply acting out to be difficult. So William decided to surprise him with a chemistry set. He knew it was something Gene would appreciate and William wanted him to know he was proud of how well he was doing in science.
One afternoon William was waiting for Gene to come home from school. When Gene got off the bus, William told him to follow him as they needed to talk. Gene sighed thinking that he was in trouble, that somehow his Dad knew what he had been thinking and he wished he could run and hide. Anything to keep from hearing and seeing his Dad's disappointment, it would all prove that he was a terrible person. He dragged his feet as he followed William into the study and when his Dad stood aside and he saw the chemistry set his eyes lit up.
"Is this for me?" Gene asked
"It sure is," William said "I'm so proud of your accomplishments in science."
"You are? But I thought no one cared."
"Gene I'm sorry we made you feel that way. We are proud of you."
"Really? You really are?" Gene asked wanting to be reassured.
"Yes we are. I hope this chemistry set is the one you wanted."
"Oh it is," Gene said growing in excitement at all the things he could do with it. "Thank you Dad, this is the best gift ever." He turned to his Dad and gave him a quick hug before turning back to the chemistry set. His head full of the things he wanted to try. He secretly wondered if he'd discover things that would help wreck havoc with his enemies, imagining himself to be a master villain. He knew he should probably imagine himself as a hero fighting against evil and he should be ashamed of himself for wanting to be the villain instead. But it was so much more fun being bad than good, he'll leave the hero bit to Robert.
Later that night, William was tossing and turning unable to sleep.
"Honey what's wrong?" Jessica asked
"Nothing, everything. I don't know."
"It's your anxiety isn't?" Jessica asked in concern
"Yes," William sighed throwing back the blankets, he sat up on the edge of the bed. "Jess help me. Don't let them take me."
"Who? What are you talking about?"
"They're coming back. I know it. I feel it," William said reaching back to hold Jessica's hand.
"No William no, it's just your anxiety," Jessica said as she got up to retrieve Williams sleeping pills.
Jessica stayed up, watching William as he took the pills and eventually drifted off to sleep. As she watched him, her heart sank remembering how difficult it had been watching him suffer. She wanted to wrap her arms around him until all his fears disappeared. Her head was nodding as she drifted off to sleep, when she heard a loud clanging noise outside. 'Great' she thought, raccoons are in the garbage again. Rushing to throw some clothes on she went outside only to be startled by an alien rummaging through their garbage.
"How dare you terrorize my family," she yelled. Startled the alien took a step back. Jessica fearing the alien would escape stepped in front of it. "Not so fast. I want some answers. I want to know why you keep taking my husband."
The alien made some sounds and once again moved to get around Jessica.
"Tell me why," Jessica shouted coming near to tears. Jessica stood there waiting, wanting, needing answers fearing she would never know. She was astonished when she heard a voice coming from inside her head.
"We didn't come this time to take anyone."
"Good because you can't have him."
"We do not want him, we need him."
"What do you mean, you need him? Jessica said looking from the alien to the door. Would the alien simply go into her home and take William. He wouldn't be able to resist, he'd be helpless under the effects of the sleeping pill she had insisted he take.
"Our experiment was successful and our superiors are anxious we duplicate it. We have thus far not found another specimen like this one. This one is unique. We need to know what makes it unique. We have been observing the specimen from a distance so that we can decipher the differences between this specimen and other less successful ones."
"He is not a specimen. He is my husband. You can't experiment on people!" Jessica shouted knowing that if the alien wanted to, it could over power her and do whatever it wanted.
"When the time is right, we will be back."
"What? Haven't you been listening? You can't simply disrupt our lives and impregnate my husband again."
"Either him or his offspring, they may prove as unique as he is. Although it will be sometime before the specimen or it's offspring will be ready for the procedure. The offspring are too young and the specimen needs to recover more fully. When the time is right, we will be back. There is nothing you can do to stop us." The alien finished speaking as a ray of light enveloped it and disappeared.
Jessica stumbled inside the house.
"Mom you ok?"
Startled Jessica woke from her daze. "Um yes. I think so." She said trying to smile reassuringly at Robert.
Robert peered at her over his cereal bowl, trying to decide if she was lying or not. "Are you sure? It's not like you and Dad not to wake us up for school. Is Dad alright?"
Jessica nodded her head, while she tried to remember when she had changed clothes and set out cereal for the kids. A part of her brain must have been functioning on auto pilot, while the rest was trying to comprehend what the alien told her. Mentally shaking her head she smiled at Robert saying "I didn't sleep well and must have dozed off when I should have been getting everyone up."
"You must've been real tired to fall asleep at the table."
Jessica laughed at his comment. "I better make sure everyone else is up or they'll all be late for school."
Before she left, Robert stopped her saying "Mom if you and Dad aren't feeling up to having people over, we don't have to have a big birthday party."
"Sweetheart, thank you for the offer but your birthday party will be exactly the way we planned it."
Robert and Evelyn's double birthday party was planned for six o'clock that night. They were excited to become teenagers; although it was bitter sweet for their parents. Their kids were growing up, becoming independent and hopefully well adjusted teenagers.
While everyone gathered to watch them blow their candles out, Evelyn and Robert were busy deciding what their wish would be. Evelyn thought about many things and eventually settled on what she felt was most important, she wished for beauty. Not only for herself but for everyone to see the beauty in everything and everyone. Robert's wish was for his parents. He somehow sensed that something was upsetting them, even though he had no clue what it could be. He wished for happiness and joy for his parents who had helped him through his recovery and he knew that whatever was bothering them now they could use some joy.
After blowing the candles out they each waited for the transformation from childhood to teenager. Evelyn grew up first followed shortly by Robert. Everyone watched and congratulated them on having on reaching a milestone in their lives.
Evelyn thought her wish came true, she was a stunning young lady. She lingered in front of the mirror admiring herself. She spent so much time in front of the mirror that her parents wondered if they would need to build another bathroom to accommodate another teenage girl.
Robert grew into a thoughtful young man, who enjoyed spending time is quiet reflection and meditation. Sometimes his parents were concerned that he was too much of a loner and encouraged him to be more outgoing.
Wednesday, April 23, 2014
Chapter Twenty-Four
Jessica left the house at a run, terrified that she would be too late. When she arrive at the hospital she rushed to the IC where William was waiting for her.
William embrace her as she burst into tears. He wanted to offer her some kind of comfort but was unable to do anything but hold her close and share her pain.
Choking on tears and fighting for control Jessica managed to ask "How is my baby?"
"I, I don't know," William confessed remembering how the police had refused to let him see Robert at the scene. Then the EMT's requested he not ride in the ambulance so that they had more room to work. William had followed behind the ambulance with the police officer that had been assigned to his sons case. When they arrived at the hospital, Robert was already on his way to the operating room.
"What do you mean you don't know?" Jessica shouted taking her frustrations out on the easiest person available. She needed someone to blame, someone to vent her anger on so that she didn't feel so helpless.
"Honey, please calm down," William pleaded.
"Calm down? How am I supposed to calm down when my little boy is hurt, possibly dieing or dead," Jessica said dissolving into tears.
William took her into his arms and held her tight, trying to be strong for the both of them. Once she had a attained some control, William guided her to a chair and sat beside her. He held her had as she sniffled and jumped in anticipation whenever someone came into the waiting room. William felt numb, unable to grasp that his feelings of dread had come true. He had endured several days of intense dread and feelings that something terrible was going to happen. He had experienced these feelings before, ever since his alien abduction but they had never been this strong before. He help by wonder why this was happening to him. Why should he be given the ability to sense something was going to happen without the ability to know what or how to prevent it? Worse yet, could this just be a manifestation of his PAASD. Maybe he needed a stronger medication to control his anxiety. A voice broke into his troubled thoughts.
"Mr. and Mrs. Bennett? I'm Dr. Johnston."
William stood up to shake the doctors extended hand. "How is my son doctor?"
"Come with me so we can talk," Dr. Johnston suggested. William motioned for Jessica to come with them and they followed the doctor into his office.
When they were seated, Doctor Johnston spoke "Your son is a very lucky little boy. He suffered a head contusion, lacerations and a broken leg. We were able to fix all the damage. The leg was the most worrisome injury due to multiple fractures that required surgery. He'll require intensive physical therapy in the next several months so that he does not acquire a permanent limp."
"Thank you doctor," William said in relief.
"When can we see our little boy?" Jessica asked.
"He's resting now but I can have my nurse take you to his room Mrs. Bennett. Your husband and I can set up a schedule for your son's physical therapy."
A week later Robert was sitting up in his hospital bed listening to Doctor Johnston tell him to take it easy when he got home and to remember to do his exercises to strengthen his leg muscles. He tried to listen and nodded in agreement to everything the doctor said. He was a little concerned about his first therapy session and his mind was on that then on what the doctor was telling him. He hoped Dr. Johnston would tell his parents because he wasn't going to remember any of it.
Physical therapy was every bit as bad as Robert feared it would be, it hurt. The therapist wouldn't let him quit, even when he had tears running down his face. The therapist kept telling him he had to push past the pain, to think of all the benefits. Robert tried his best, he wanted to go home, he wanted to ride his bike, he wanted to run, to do all the things he use to do without thinking. Every session he had kept his goals in his thoughts and when the pain became really bad he was able to push through it. In time the cast came off and his therapy sessions became more intense. But it all paid off in the end, he was back to doing everything he had been able to do before the accident. Although he never quite got over his fear of being hit by car and would stop riding his bike until the car would pass, eventually he quit riding altogether.
He and Evelyn were finally finishing elementary school and would soon be entering high school. As she last days of their childhood was drawing to a close they received an invitation from the school to receive medals for participating in Scouts. So they dressed in their uniforms for the last time and the entire family attended the ceremony. Robert was glad he was able to walk up on the stage to accept his medal. It would have been a perfect night accept the fact the announcer had to tell everyone about him being hit by a car and almost dieing. He wanted to forget it ever happened but no one would let him. He could see how it affected his parents, it was in their eyes, the way they looked at him. He did his best to ignore it and hope it would get better.
Tuesday, March 11, 2014
Chapter Twenty-Three
The following day William watched the kids ride towards the fair grounds. He had an uneasy feeling that something bad was going to happen. But he tried to ignore it, chalking it up to anxiety he still fights with since his abduction. All through the day he kept telling himself everything was ok and the kids were going to have a good time enjoying their day at the fair.Meanwhile the kids were enjoying themselves at the fair.
"Hey, let's do the hot dog eating contest" Gene suggested.
"Sure I'm game" both Casey and Evelyn volunteered.
"Count me out" Robert announced and Beverly shook her head no. But they stood nearby to watch. There was room for one more contestant and some old lady from town decided to join them, probably thinking she could win against three little kids. Robert and Beverly cheered for which ever sibling seemed to be eating the fastest. Towards the end both Casey and Evelyn were slowing and trying valiantly not to gag as they couldn't eat anymore. But Gene kept shoveling hot dogs down and it was going to be a race to the end between him and the old lady. In the end Gene won by half a hot dog.
Gene was so excited he could hardly wait to go home and tell everyone at home. His prize wasn't much, a supply of hot dogs. Oh yay, like he'd want to eat more hot dogs, not! But his Dad might want one and possibly his Mom, so Gene decided to go home so he could show off his winnings.
"Come on Casey let's go home" Gene demanded.
"But I want to stay" Casey protested.
"Casey we can always come back. Let's go." Gene insisted and as usual Casey gave in to Gene's demands.
The others stayed, Beverly enjoyed picking flowers while Robert and Evelyn learned to roller skate.
"Beverly are you sure you don't want to join us?" Evelyn asked, feeling bad that Beverly had no one to play with.
"I'm ok."
"You're sure?" Evelyn insisted.
"Yes" Beverly said in exasperation. Why couldn't Evelyn just leave her alone. She liked doing things on her own.
"Come on Evie, leave her alone" Robert suggested as he skated by.
"Ok" Evelyn said as she tried to catch up to Robert. "I just want her to have some fun."
"How do you know she's not?" Robert inquired.
"Well, how much fun could picking flowers be?"
"I dunno, maybe a lot. Let her enjoy what she likes" Robert told Evelyn.
They soon tired of roller skating and decided to play soccer. They asked Beverly to join them but she declined, preferring to catch insects instead.
"Ugh insects" Evelyn said under her breath.
Robert grinned at her and said "Just because you don't like something doesn't mean someone else can't."
"We share a room. I don't want to share it with her and her bugs."
"Well it's better then sharing a room with Sydney, isn't it?"
"Yeah anything would be" Evelyn laughed agreeing.
"Including bugs?" Robert teased.
"Well, almost anything."
It was getting late and they had promised to be home before eight. Robert told Evelyn and Beverly to start home without him and he would catch up. He wanted to get a snack before he left. Once he finished he figured he was about five - six minutes behind the girls, he knew he would easily catch up to them because Beverly was so slow.
It was getting dark but that didn't really bother Robert. He was enjoying his bike ride as flew down the street past the pedestrians walking on the sidewalk. He remembered to use all his hand signals when he was making a turn and stopped at all the stop signs. He imagined he was driving, thinking that it might be fun to be a race car driver when he grew up. He started to pedal faster when he spotted Evelyn and Beverly a little ways ahead of him.
He noticed a car had pulled on to the road a little ways ahead of him. Nothing to be concerned about except they seemed not to know which side of the road they should be driving on. Robert debated on whether he should stop and wait for them to pass but he really wanted to catch up and pass the girls. So he pedaled faster, making sure he stayed as far away from the other lane as he could until the car passed.
Then as the car was about to pass him, it swerved into his lane. He tried to get out of the way but the car was going to fast and the headlights were so bright he couldn't see where he was going. There was a horrible crunching sound as his bike collided with the car and he was catapulted into the air. When he landed he hurt every where, it felt like he had been smashed into a million pieces. Something thick, sticky and warm was covering his face and running into his eyes. He couldn't see or move and he was dimly aware that someone was moaning in pain. It didn't register that it was him moaning, he kept thinking he should've left with the girls. Were they alright? He desperately wanted his Dad or his Mom to be here telling him he was alright.
He heard footsteps approaching him and people talking. "Oh man, you hit a kid. Call 911."
"Dude if I do that I'll lose my license for sure."
"Who cares about your license ? You killed a kid, not a dog or cat, you freaking idiot!" Then in the distance there was the sound of sirens growing louder as they drew closer.
"Look dude I'm sorry but I can't lose my license. I'm out of here."
"What's the matter with you? You can't leave. Don't you get it? You hit a kid! You deserve whatever they throw at you. Losing your license is the least of your worries; especially if you leave the scene of the accident."
"Your right, your right. What am I going to do?"
Robert had no idea who the voices were and was dimly aware they were talking about him but he was pretty sure he wasn't dead. He tried to tell them but they kept arguing amongst themselves. Then there was all the sirens and lights and someone in uniform came and knelt down beside him, asking him for his name. He tried to tell him but no sound came out. He wanted to ask the police officer to get his Dad but he couldn't form the words.
Meanwhile William was at a nearby house after excepting an invitation to a co-workers party. Everyone was drawn to the windows when they heard the sound of squealing tires and the crash. It sounded horrible, William hoped everyone was ok. Then one of his co-workers came running into the house announcing loudly that a drunk driver just hit a kid on a bike. William's heart stopped for a second as his mind replayed those words in his head "a drunk driver hit a kid on a bike" Oh no, this can't be happening he told himself as he took his cell phone out and called Jessica in a near panic. "Jess are all the kids home from the fair?"
"Yes I'm pretty sure they are, why?"
"Check" William demanded.
"What? I don't understand"
Cutting her off William demanded "Jessica just check."
"Ok, ok" Jessica checked but couldn't find Robert. Seeing Evelyn outside putting her bike away she asked "Where is Robert?"
"I dunno. He was going to get a snack, then meet up with us but he never did" Evelyn told her.
"William Robert hasn't come home yet." Jessica said starting to sound worried.
William disconnected without saying anything to her. His heart was racing as he felt he was reliving his worst nightmare. The nagging worry he had, the feeling that something bad was going to happen just came true. With those thoughts running through his mind he ran out of the house and down the street towards the flashing police lights and as he arrived on the scene the ambulance arrived. He passed the crumpled remains of a kids bike that he recognized as the new bike he had just given to his son.
William vaguely acknowledged the voice telling him to stop. "Halt sir you can't go beyond this point."
"I have to. That's my son's bike"
"Sorry sir. Come with me." The officer escorted William towards the ambulance. William's attention was riveted towards the EMT's huddled around a small form on the ground. Before he realized it he had taken a step or two towards them, when he felt a restraining had on his shoulder. "Sir you can't go over there. Best to let them do their job. You can ride with your son to the hospital." William knew the officer was right, he would only be in the way but he wanted to be there comforting his son. William was shaking as he pulled his cell phone out to tell Jessica to meet them at the hospital.
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